Symbollocks

Brandon Darby is an FBI informant.

Brandon Darby was a victim of the same game he played with the activists he turned in. The activists he was spying on didn’t have the guts to carry through with their plans, but he himself was too cowardly to simply let it go, to not follow through on the awful obligations he had made to the FBI to catch some crazy kids. Now he is $12,000 richer and the two activists he turned in are going to lose several years of their lives to prison sentences.

He was the one who put them in the position to make the illegal weaponry that ended up getting them in trouble (molotov cocktails) by purposefully having the FBI confiscate the equipment they had originally brought with them (home made riot shields). He took advantage of their idiocy or perhaps he was an idiot himself. He incited their rage. He stoked the fire. And when even that failed to bring many criminal acts to fruition he tried to recoup his losses by ratting on their possession of unregistered firearms out of a subordinate relationship with a deceptive power structure… one of the power structures he once sought to destroy. What a sad sad tale.

What conclusions should we draw from this whole situation? Greater awareness of security culture protocol? Or perhaps a different approach.

From a post on the Ran Prieur forums:

Can we have a quick-check on “corporate farming”? Its a rarity. Seriously. Corporations do not want to own farms because farms fail too often. There’s a complicated sequence of operations in which corporations effectively own and control farms, but the big players are more than happy to let the guy-with-the-land-mortgage suck up the losses.

Okay, here’s the brief form. You can’t make money selling large amounts of ag product on the open market. There are reasons for this, mostly related to market development- farmers just can’t find anyone who will pay to drive out and pick up their quinoa or broccoli. Outside of a few valleys, in South Texas and California, there isn’t much of a vegetable packing, storage, and distribution infrastructure capable of handling more than a single truckload or two to the local farmstand or specialty restaurant. Specialty grains and pulses are even harder to unload, because the packing and redistribution points are few and far between.

The upshot is, farmers have to grow what the local elevator will take, and for virtually the entire continental US, that means the Archer-Daniels-Midland elevator, and it means corn, soybeans, rice, wheat, cotton or tobacco (which technically goes in a barn, not an elevator.) So Joe Farmer, who inherited three hundred twenty acres and some equipment, has to either go to business school and start his very own quinoa packing, warehousing, distribution, marketing and sales empire, or he has to sell a commodity product to an ADM elevator.

Now, commodity prices are artificially deflated in this country. That’s why we don’t spend much money on food, and why corn syrup is so cheap they put it in canned tomatoes. The difference is made up for with government subsidies, which are on a per-acre (rather than a per-bushel) basis. There are a zillion different subsidies covering everything from water conservation to feed corn, and farmers put more time into understanding how to fit the subsidy rules than they spend driving tractors. The catch is, to qualify for subsidies, you need crop insurance, and to qualify for crop insurance, you need a crop plan.

Now, what’s a crop plan? A crop plan involves telling the insurance agent what you plan to grow, where, when you will plant, what equipment you will till, disc, and seed with, what herbicides you’ll lay down, what fertilizers you’ll amend with, what seed you’ll plant, when you’ll spray and how and with what, and when the harvest is. The insurers look at your crop plan, say either “this makes sense, looks reliable, and we expect you to succeed, here’s a cheap rate” or else “this looks risky and weird, you might get eaten by armyworms, we’ll charge you more to cover the increased risk” and there you have it- something to collect on if your crops fail. You take that insurance to the feds, they cut you a check, you pay off the land mortgage, and you’re in business for another year.

Oh wait, did that sound rational? I forgot to mention that the company that insures your crops also sells herbicides, pesticides, fertilizers, seeds, land mortgages, and financing on those chisel plows and seed drills. Think they’re going to accept your crop plan if it doesn’t use their products, in copious and expensive quantities? Fuggedaboutit.

So who needs insurance, though? Why not just save seed, plant a crop, sell it and take your chances with floods and blights? Nobody is stopping you- but you won’t qualify for subsidies, so you’ll have to sell at commodity prices which are, did I mention, deflated below the cost of production. And when you go back to renew your mortgage, because you won’t have earned enough to make payments, well, do you think the guys you snubbed on insurance, not to mention chemicals and seeds, are going to lend you any money?

So fuck the commodity crops. Why not grow lettuce- its worth a fortune on a small plot, no? Yes, but assuming you don’t also own a fleet of trucks, a refrigerated warehouse, and a team of marketing agents, what will you do with the other three hundred and fifteen acres? Land taxes cost money, y’know.

What about growing commodities, but growing them better? Sweeter sweet corn, tastier edamame-quality soybeans? Heirloom wheat? Could you charge more? No, you couldn’t- you couldn’t even sell them to the local elevator, because guess who owns that too? Making stuff come out of the ground is easy- making it go away on a truck, and have money come back later in the mail, that’s the hard part of farming.

So after fighting that for years, and watching the GMO crops come up the year after you tried to rotate them out because of the armyworms, or watching the price on glyphosate go up and up and up (seriously- ask your local farmer what he’s paying for roundup this year) , or watching the margins on an acre of potatoes (or peanuts, or whatever your local commodity specialty might be) get narrower and narrower, then some guy comes to the front door of your house- or trailer- in a suit and offers you eight million to build a subdivision on your land. And you think, holy shit, I could get out of this company-store racket for good, maybe take my family someplace with a decent school system and less meth, and you walk downtown to sign the papers. And what greets you? A bunch of college kids damning you to hell for selling out the independent spirit of the American yeoman, for giving up the sacred stewardship of The Land (and you can hear the capitals when they say it) and they call you a corporate overlord bastard and tell you your crops ain’t fit to eat and we’re a nation of slaves.

And you hate them. They’re right.

That’s a “corporate” farm.

25 Random Things About Me

1. I’m neither an optimist or a pessimist. Regarding the half glass of water example: It’s water in a glass. Based on your perspective you can choose whether to view the glass as half-empty or half-full. Neither of these are “true” in the same sense that we know there is water in a glass. I’m observant enough to see these are both valid perspectives and I would be limiting my awareness to say one or the other is “true”. Regardless, I think both perspectives are valuable and that being able to compare these perspectives internally is a very important skill.
2. I don’t use shampoo (except maybe once a month). I rinse my hair, but prefer to let the natural oils build up, especially when my hair is longer than an inch or so. If I use shampoo I’ll get dandruff.
3. I am anarchist and by extension an anti-statist. I believe the pursuit of power is unethical.
4. I can appreciate most music. I don’t enjoy much popular music, but I can bear it. I don’t have a favorite band or type of music, it varies constantly depending on my mood.
5. I don’t own a car for a lot of reasons, primarily because it’s easy for me to do since I live less than a 10 minute walk away from work. I walk, bike, bus, and bum rides when I want to go somewhere.
6. I didn’t have a girlfriend until after high school. While I was in high school I was bitter about that. But now I can see that most girls avoided me for pretty good reasons: I was arrogant, I didn’t know how to make myself talk (shyness) and couldn’t talk to people well, I had low self-esteem (yes, AND arrogant), I was not outgoing at all, and I was SO AFRAID OF EVERYTHING (of girls, ending up alone, coming off as obsessive, talking to people, etc. etc.).
7. I have been with my girlfriend, Jennifer, for a little over 6 months at this point. We’ve talked about getting married by sometime next year. Though we’re not officially engaged, we’re officially pre-engaged.
8. I had planned on going on a long open ended trip to begin this past May. I have cancelled that trip in lieu of the girl mentioned above, but we plan on travelling together after we’re married.
9. My early childhood (0 - 7) was spent in the inner city of Indianapolis. I remember it as one of the happiest times of my life.
10. My late childhood and teenage years (7 - 18) were spent in the suburbs of Indianapolis. I remember it as one of the most disturbed times of my life.
11. I dropped out of college after freshman year and have been happier ever since. I don’t really regret it, which many have told me I would (or in their minds, should). I value education and learning, but not schooling.
12. I feel a sense of urgency about the future of our world. I feel that our civilization is on a self-destructive path and that as a whole we’re still in denial about it. I hope it’s not too late.
13. I read voraciously, but I go through periods of almost no reading at all. The reading I’ve done in the past couple years has been focused on making sense of the world, trying to understand it better.
14. I do my best to act confidently on the knowledge I’ve acquired. I’m doing my utmost to create the world I want to live in. I think doing anything else would be a waste of my life.
15. When it comes to voting I’m utterly independent. I also reserve the right not to vote. I dislike arguments to always vote or to never vote, in fact…
16. I dislike puritanism. Puritanism is an intellectual crutch that is condescending towards the complexities of reality. Puritan outlooks smack of righteousness, shame, blame, and general “finger-pointy”-ness.
17. I think ideologies are intellectual crutches and that a fixation on a single one is unhealthy (puritanical). Of course, we need crutches when we’re weak, but we should be hunble enough to admit it.
18. I think defending your right to shit on people and the things they cherish, also known as snarking, is a serious personal deficiency possibly representative of extreme righteousness and arrogance.
19. I like attempting to reconcile differing political sentiments. “Liberals hate cars because they destroy the environment.” “Libertarians hate government dependence.” An agreeable solution would be cutting off subsidies for auto-makers/roads and abolishing zoning laws that force businesses to be located out of walking distance of residential neighborhoods. See?
20. I’m a computer programmer, and it’s an alright job, but it’s not as amazing as some industry people might make it out to be.
21. I used to consider myself a geek. I don’t anymore, mainly because “geek” tends to imply obsessiveness or single-mindedness, neither of which describe me much anymore.
22. I mostly don’t like to listen to music when I’m out and about because I highly value the small interactions with the world around me. Headphones often seem to just get in the way, and send an anti-social vibe.
23. I’m (usually) very patient. Lulls in conversation don’t bother me. Sitting in traffic or standing in line is a joy. These occassions give me the opportunity to literally stop and think, which is asolutely a blessing in our fast paced society.
24. I’m an introvert (and read this article to refresh your memory about what exactly that means). Social interaction is exhausting to me. I’m an idea person, not a people person. I am fairly good at suppressing my introvertedness, but that tends to be even more exhausting (and stress inducing) in the end.
25. I claim no religion. However, I feel there is something very spiritual about existence itself. I was raised in a Mennonite Church, and this has had a pretty big influence on my life, particularly when it comes to violence.

”[…]Nassim Taleb’s book The Black Swan makes a distinction between people who think in a complex systems way (we could call this ecothinking) and those who think classically based on what is known and categorised about the world. The latter is why we have arrived at this situation and the former is a way to understand the future as we progress through socio-economic-ecological disasters caused by centralised, classicised, elitist, anthropocentric culture.[…]”

- Random Comment

[…] I have lost all interest in arguments that something can’t be done. I’ve made those arguments myself, but now I’m going to quit, because when they’re right they’re a waste of time, and when they’re wrong they are actively harmful. To argue for the impossibility of something you like is despair, and to argue for the impossibility of something you don’t like is dangerous wishful thinking. Instead of talking about why things can’t be done, we need to focus our attention and power on how things can be done.

This kind of positive thinking should not be confused with blind optimism. I’ve said this before: the weak kind of “hope” is about what’s going to happen: that Obama will save the economy, that science will find a replacement for cheap oil, that economic growth can continue indefinitely, that nobody who now has food and electricity will lose it, that there will be no surprising disasters.

The strong kind of “hope” is about what we do: that we can find shelter without money, be comfortable without electricity, keep order without the police, grow food without chemical fertilizers, preserve wheeled transportation without factories, and generally adapt to great challenges, even if we cannot yet see the way.

- Ran Prieur

Yes, yes, yes. I’m done with that crap, too. I’m tired of hearing primitivists argue about how it’s impossible to build a complex society without domination. I’m tired of futurists who argue the impossibility of resource exhaustion. I’m tired of liberals who argue that it’s impossible to get rid of government responsibly. I’m sick of libertarians that argue against possibility of freedom they so espouse. I’m sick and tired of all these stupid arguments. The future is unwritten. It really is. Embrace possibility.

“I went to the woods because I wished to live deliberately, to front only the essential facts of life, and see if I could not learn what it had to teach, and not, when I came to die, discover that I had not lived. I did not wish to live what was not life, living is so dear; nor did I wish to practice resignation, unless it was quite necessary, I wanted to live deep and suck out all the marrow of life, to live so sturdily and Spartan-like as to put to rout all that was not life, to cut a broad swath and shave close, to drive life into a corner, and reduce it to its lowest terms, and, if it proved to be mean, why then to get the whole and genuine meanness of it, and publish its meanness to the world; or if it were sublime, to know it by experience, and be able to give a true account of it in my next excursion. For most men, it appears to me, are in a srange uncertainty about it, whether it is of the devil or of God, and have somewhat hastily concluded that it is the chief end of man here to ‘glorify God and enjoy him forever.’”

- Walden by Henry David Thoreau

You know one thing the battle between democrats and republicans politics is about? It’s about being able to claim cultural control over those who are unable to define their own politics and those who do not know how to define their own politics.

Should we be doing that? Should we simply be trying to get people on a ‘side’?

The only way we’re going to fix any of this mess we’ve made is if we teach people to create/define their own politics, and that’s not going to be easy.

One of the things that makes depression really hard to deal with is simply the overwhelming nature of negative emotions. If you can’t distinguish anxiety from sadness from despair how can you deal with any of those things individually? You can’t. You see them all as just one big ball, as one problem, when in fact that ball is a big knot of smaller problems. The problems are probably interrelated/interconnected, which is what makes them seem like a big ball in the first place, but knowing that smaller problems make up the larger problem is key in untangling the knot. This is why meditation and other buddhist practices are held in high regard by many who suffer from depression. Meditation is simply a way of approaching and examining the big ball of negative emotions and figuring out the pieces that make it up. Figuring out those pieces is the first step towards controlling those negative emotions and thinking patterns instead of them controlling you.

Understanding how thoughts lead to emotions is also very important in controlling your depression. I kind of covered this a couple weeks ago. If I’m stuck in a long check out line and the person in front of me has a ton of stuff I can think “Geez, I only have a couple items, I wish I could go first. This is so unfair.” Or I could think “Oh well, life goes on. They want to get out of here quickly, too, and they did get here first. I needed some time to think about some things anyway.” It’s hard to make yourself think in that different a way if you are used to thinking the first way all the time, but recognizing that ways of thinking can contribute to (or help alleviate) your depression is usually enough to get you to examine your thoughts more. Ecouch provides this handy list of some of the more common thought patterns that can excacerbate depression:

Catastrophising or Exaggerating - When you predict that a disaster or problem will follow as the consequence of some action or event, even though the outcome is not likely to be nearly so bad. (Example: You are going to have minor surgery and you think you will get an infection and die from the procedure.)

Overgeneralising - When you draw a conclusion from a single bad event or misfortune to include a whole area of your life. (Example: You went through a painful break-up with your long-term girlfriend, and now you think that all your relationships are doomed.)

Mental Filtering - When you focus on single negative details and ignore everything else. (Example: You receive constructive feedback but you only remember the criticisms.)

Minimising the Positive - When you disregard or minimise positive things about yourself and focus on the negative. (Example: You minimise your skills and experiences and only notice what you can’t do.)

Taking Good Things the Wrong Way - When something good happens and you interpret it negatively. (Example: You are complimented by a friend, but you think that they are just being nice, rather that seeing it as a positive thought towards you.)

Black and White or All-or-None Thinking - When you see things as either all good or all bad. (Example: You think if you’re not perfect you’re a failure.) This thinking also sometimes appears in the way people think about each other. (Example: You regard someone who makes a boo-boo as a ‘complete idiot’.)

Emotional Reasoning - When you use your feelings as a key to the truth. (Example: You feel low or pessimistic and therefore think that this reflects the truth about your life or the world around you.)

Jumping to Conclusions or Arbitrary Inference - When you draw conclusions which are irrelevant to facts of the situation. (Example: You’ve just eaten a large meal and you conclude that you are therefore fat.)

Labelling or Mislabelling - When you describe yourself using a negative term or label. (Example: You think, ‘I’m a loser’ or ‘I’m stupid’.)

The question I’ll be tackling tomorrow is: What about our society makes people more likely to fall into these kinds of thinking? (A roundabout way of asking: what about our society makes so many people in it depressed?) Are there certain personalities that are more at risk for depression? Why?